ALICE HAS GIVEN ME A GIFT
AND I WANT TO MAKE THE MOST OF IT
HER LEGACY CONTINUES AND I’M SO PROUD
Hi, I'm Sarah. Until November 2014 my life was pretty normal but good. I've had a past peppered with self doubt, bullying, low self esteem and lack of self worth. But, after some positive affirmation work in my teens I turned most of that around and have been a pretty optimistic person ever since. Those who know me probably wouldn't know about that side of me.
I met my now husband in a hostel in Chile in 2006 and moved to London to live with him about a year later. We got married in 2011 and were excited to start a family. It took us 18 months to get pregnant with Alice, but finally we were expecting a baby and we were over the moon. Everything was up, we were high on life.
It kind of came crashing down around us at her birth. Everything was going well until the final 2 hours or so of our natural water birth labour. She was in distress and no one realised. Eventually she was born after an episiotomy and she wasn't breathing. She was taken away to the NICU to be put on 'cooling' to help her brain recover from the lack of oxygen. Over the course of the next few days we realised that the damage was far too great and in the end we had to let her go. She passed away in our arms 5 days later. This is not easy to read is it? It absolutely has been the most tragic and life changing event in our lives that's for sure.
Things have changed greatly since Alice. We've gone on to have two absolutely gorgeous boys. Our family is now complete (this is a message to the universe to signal I'm done being pregnant thanks!). We are 'stronger together' - a motto Dave and I used in the hospital a million times a day those first 5 days.
We've recovered and moved on with our lives. Of course we hold Alice really close in our hearts and think of her so often, but we've managed to deal with the grief, the trauma, the heart break and the even hasn't stopped us from living the lives we wanted.
I do owe most of my current philosophical and healed views to Tapping (Emotional Freedom Technique) and Matrix Reimprinting which I found while I was pregnant with my second child Casper.
It has lead me to this path.
To train in Tapping and Matrix Reimprinting, so that I can help others suffering from baby loss, birth trauma, miscarriage, and ongoing negative emotions that arise from these, and also just every day mum stuff that gets us down!
HOW EFT/MATRIX REIMPRINTING HELPED ME
A video interview with my practitioner Kate Marillat.